新的一年, 每个人都有新的期望。。 哈哈。。 我当然也有啦!! 但应先向主献上感恩~
08′ 是经历神同在的一年。。 在学业、家人、朋友还有很多很多，回首过去的日子，发现满满的，都是神的恩典。。当然有悲伤，有改变，也有不顺心的事。。但主的同在及他所赐的力量就是那么的奇妙。。觉得没人聆听时，只要祷告，向他倾诉，我知道主都垂听。。上帝不是挪走我的恐惧，而是加添我力量去面对每一个挑战。。感谢神！接下来就是感谢家人的支持，给予的鼓励及代祷。。哈哈。。再接下来就是所有的朋友啦，从每一个身边的人都学到不同的功课。。谢谢你们。。
09’ 知道主必继续带领。。把这一年交托。。求主赐福、赐力量，让我能成为他所喜悦的孩子。。
=未知的将来在全知的上帝手中必然稳妥=
最后一次的小组了，去了Giant买蛋糕，谢谢健仁的车、汉伟载我去。。小组，谢谢昕瑞的帮忙、凤仪煮的茶叶蛋及红豆汤、Shu Jin 领唱，还有好多好多朋友的帮忙。。愿主记念你们的劳苦。。
在华文小组好多个学期了。。真的要放下组长的责任，因为在小组成长，对它有不同的负担。。虽然很忙，但感谢神的保守及看顾。。从小组的事奉里看到了很多。。看到了朋友们对上帝的委身、看到了彼此在主里扶持的心、彼此关怀、彼此代祷，也看到了人们对爱及关怀的渴望，无论是亲情、友情或爱情。。也看到了就连基督徒本身很多时候，忘了把焦点放在神的身上，看世界上的一切比神更重要。。我们都需要反省吧。。
小组，人数的加增，向主献上感谢。。感谢主他垂听我们的祷告。。哈哈。。上帝的作为是如此的奇妙!! 谢谢每一个小组组员，从你们身上我学习如何在主面前谦卑服事，特别是 Shu Jin, Yun, TY, XinRui, Chistina, Yiwen… 要卸下组长的身份了，求主预备适合的人起来带领。。为小组向主献上赞美，向主献上祷告。。求主继续施恩典。。^^
累。。但靠着主的恩典，我必能继续往前行！！学习操练自己对主的信心。。学习不去看人如何看我，而是把眼光注目在上面。。想念爸妈及姐哥，想念永平的死党们。。加油了。。
《今日我在基督里欢欣快乐，
虽然路途中重重苦难深锁，
而天父总是能帮助我说出，
我的境况真的是再好不过了！》
哦主，求你保守我的心我的意念，
使我能够遵行你旨意，
我愿将你话语深藏在我心，
作路上的光，成为我脚前的灯。
哦主，求你坚固我信心、我的力量，
使我得以勇敢往前行，
因我知道有时我仍会软弱，
求你带领我使我不会再退缩，
我需要有你在我生命中，
好让我一生能学你的样式，
使我能成为你所喜悦的儿女，
使我的生命能够彰显你荣耀。
=在主爱中分享这首歌，愿主将我心中的感动放在你心里，阿们！=
新年假期结束了。。感谢主，让我与亲戚及朋友有很美好的相聚时间。。
假期里，爸妈姐的分享，不知道怎的，造成一定的压力。。呵呵。。对未来有一定的不安及担忧。。世界上每一件事都会随着时间改变，得承认这一点。。可能是因为不希望失去现在拥有的东西吧，心里的不安，向主诉说。。刚刚读到了马太福音第六章24-34节，仿佛主在对我说话 ^^ “不要为生命忧虑吃什么喝什么，也不要为身体忧虑穿什么。。。你们看天空的飞鸟：它们不撒种，不收割，也不进仓里，你们的天父尚且养活它们；难道你们不比它们更宝贵吗？。。。所以不要为明天忧虑，因为明天自有明天的忧虑，一天的难处一天担就够了。”最近确实心情不好吧~ 呵呵。。因为在做无谓的担忧，发现自己有时还是一个信心蛮弱的，对主对身边的人。。忧虑太多了。。求主继续带领，继续加添力量。。为何自己忧虑这么多？主是如此奇妙的主，主是全能的主，他为我预备前面的路，我在担忧什么呢？再次感谢主的话语。。继续信靠前行~~
新年立志要更认真地读神的话语。。最近课业的压力来了，还有一切不开心的事，体会到只有主能100% 了解及谅解我的感受。。哈哈。。因他是无所不知的主啊! ^^ 祷告，有时无法用词语表达感受时，只对主说“求主聆听我的心”，奇妙的。。几次就这样在对主说完后，闭上眼，体会到主的同在和安慰而流泪。。哈哈。。谢谢主的同在，继续仰望主。。
〈 尽管他看到我因失败而堕落，但他仍然爱我；他把我从迷失中拯救出来，他是我慈爱的救主。〉
新的一年，仰望主恩，往前奔跑，主他永远与我们同在~ 一起加油吧！^^
回到家。。两个月的假期开始了。。但~~~
前几天，爸妈遇到了小意外，受了皮外伤。。第二次了，一个人在家时，接到了爸妈发生意外的消息。。上一次，妈伤得很严重。。这次，接到电话时，害怕吧~ 不知他们伤得如何，差点当场哭哦。。忙了一整天。。亲戚们的帮忙及朋友们的慰问，感动，也感谢主。。
这几天由我帮爸妈清理伤口。。看妈妈手上的伤 + 刚刚帮爸爸洗伤口，心痛。。患难、逆境，有时候真的会让人觉得难过及泄气。。但是，始终知道主的平安伴随着我们。。最近看着一本书 《与逆境共舞》，妈要我看的，才刚开始读，不过却已有所得着。。
‘逆境来自于上帝’，这本书一开始重点就是酱写的。。哇。。引起我的兴趣继续读下去。。当耶稣和门徒经过耶路撒冷，他们遇见一个天生瞎眼的人，门徒问耶稣 “拉比，这人生下来就瞎眼，是谁犯了罪？是他呢，还是他的父母呢？” 患难可能是因为我们的罪或别人的罪导致，但若两者都不是，有许多人就怀疑上帝的良善及信实。。耶稣说：“不是他犯了罪，也不是他的父母犯了罪，而是要在他身上彰显上帝的作为。” （约9：3）患难有些时候不是做了某事的后果，它是上帝计划的一部分，让我们彰显主的荣耀及大能。。很深奥叻？哇哈哈。。^0^
知道爸妈发生意外是主的旨意。。所以，学习在患难中喜乐及感恩。。感谢神，爸妈只是受了皮外伤；感谢神，让我体会到很多东西，感谢感谢。。说不尽的感恩。。要更珍惜父母，为他们每一天的喜乐感谢神，求主继续保守爸妈。。
嗯。。大家都加油吧！主与我们同在。。。才看到第14页，真的要加油。。哈哈。。Gambateh~~
haha… 2mr ll b d 1st day of my 2 month holiday… For d ACC paper, juz tried my best n leave d rest to d Lord… feel quite a weird since long time din post blog… hehe…
2mr gonna go bek home lol~~~ wahaha… go thru tis short sem, experience new things in life.. for d frenship part, gv thanks to d Lord… sometimes mayb v may think like v r being left behind by frens or v may blame frens for acting differently.. realised tat it is d time for us to stop for awhile n try to look at ourselves.. V may think tat ppl changed, but mayb d person who really changed is ourselves… haha… Try to appreciate each frenship around us for it is hard to get best frens who really know us in life…Once get 1, try to maintain d frenship for it is worthwhile to do so ^^ Learn to treasure every single moment tat being wif family & frens..
Besides that, thru tis sem realised tat instead of comparing wif others n jealous of wat other ppl got, v hv to b grateful n contented wif wat v hv now for all these things r d best blessings from God..Tis sem, my spiritual life is quite empty, juz set d target to draw closer to d Lord in tis holiday..
’Move forward wif d power from d Lord’ is alwiz a part of my prayer… Move on n on… all things is within God’s plan… wahhaa..
TQ for all my frens who accompany me go thru tis short sem.. Gonna miss u all as mayb v oli can meet each other in nex year lu 08′~ haha… N now miss my bro Jesse n frens in overseas… May God bless u all~ ^^
Happy holiday to my frens~~ Gd luck to acc frens for LAW paper n Mouse for Marketing paper… All d best~ C y’all….
开学了，好想念在家里的感觉。。回去，帮爸妈姐妹不少忙。。哈哈哈。。我还是很有用的啦。。呵呵呵。。。^^Y
去了营会，领受了不少东西，也与朋友们有很好的团契时间。。有许多美好的时光。。大家一起唱诗歌，用餐，玩游戏，听信息，与长辈们交谈；与死党们吵吵闹闹的。。开心吧~~~总觉得快乐的时光过得特别快。。三天的营会结束了。。当大伙儿送我到校门口时，很想哭。。忍住了，到了房间哗啦哗啦的下起大雨。。哇哈哈哈。。很舍不得要离开的好朋友。。
两个好朋友在这几天都要离开了。。没难过是假的，虽然知道总会有相聚的一天，但还是很伤心。。最好的朋友出国了。。哈哈（苦笑。。。）只希望别忘了彼此，把我们交托给主。。珍重了，朋友。。真的很舍不得你们啊！！不喜欢离别。。很伤感。。
开学了一个星期。。未来彼此都加油吧。。愿主引领我们前面的道路。。会很想念你们的 ^^ Gambateh ya~ all d best to u guys~~
Lastly, wanna say tq to all my frens here~ Gambateh in tis new sem lo~ Aja aja fighting!!!
Haha.. juz finished acc test, these days feel like tat kind of stress feeling come bek to find me again~ hoho~~ Oh My God~ try to relax relax n relax… =.=" Go away u tis annoying ’stress’ thing! i dun wanna b ur fren! =P Tis moment juz feel like wanna go bek home.. enjoy d time at home,
spend my time wif family n hometown frens, n my doggie as well..
wahaha.. I dun like tat stress feeling, it ll bring me serious
headache~ besides, when i stressed up, my frens here ll b d ppl who ll get tortured here.. haha… Juz dun wanna pull down their mood…
Erm… Frens or ppl ard me may think tat i know alot of things, i mean in academic aspect.. but act i m not wat they think… wat can i explain to them? sometimes juz let them say wat they wanna say, Speechless~ stand in d high spot, sometimes feel like gonna fall soon.. hoho.. Juz tell myself tat God by my side, He knows all my anxieties & sure ll console me wif His words~ 2mr ll b a better day ^-^
上帝向我伸出双手, 他领我经过危险的溪流, 走到彼岸… 主, 请你让我拉着你手, 和你同行.. 让我靠着你的力量, 有你的同伴, 勇敢往前走 ^-^ 主求你教我将重担卸下给你…
2007.7.23 (MOnday)
Juz came bek from yong peng ytr nite, feel depressed as cant meet up much wif my yong peng buddy.. but no choice lo… hv to come bek..
Then these days… STRESS~~ no reason, juz start to feel stressed again~~ wat should i do? No IDEA~~
Enough upset ady, but then some stupid things happened tis morning.. My frens n i being scolded by one of our old old lecturer.. walaowei.. Juz upset.. Pretend like nth happen abt but act i feel super down.. 1st time being scolded by lecturer.. But v hv to admit our mistake, being too hyperactive in class is not tat good, maybe some of d lecturers like it, but some dun… After being scolded really got no mood to prepare for my presentation.. Totally down, out of function.. haha… then during presentation, din prepare coz got no mood, dunno hows my performance.. conclusion is tat: really unlucky, my mood become worse after being scolded.. keep telling myself, ‘cheer up cheer up, everything is gonna b ok…’ feel wanna cry… for all d incidents happened within last 5 hours..
But still feel thankful, coz i realise my frens’ care towards me + learn to admit my mistake, take out d courage to ask for forgiveness~ Special thanks to Mouse, MoonChild, Chloe, Cat n Chicken Mama in tis incident~ TQ (x10000) haha…
Gv tks to d Lord… for everything… Hope tat 2mr i can c d sun shine again after all these cloudy days~
2007.7.25 (Wednesday)
Juz bek from Acc class, a regular class.. normal class~ but so so quiet, suddenly realised tat i was really too hyperactive & talkative in acc class.. But there is no more joy, force myself to be quite, maybe got phobia about being scolded, so juz keep quiet~ Tis class was extremely long for me.. Dunno wat my frens feel abt it.. Juz diff, nex sem hv to be like tis ah?! Wonder wat is gonna to be in nex sem…May God lead me n hv mercy on me…
Ytr i received sms from one of my cg frens, Edna, d msg was abt her daddy passed away.. Juz b4 d dinner, almost recover from tat being scolding thing, then suddenly received tis bad news~ know abt tat her dad in ICU on mon nite, then sms her n prayed for her daddy.. Never tot tat things ll turn up in tis way.. Reminded me abt my uncle & aunty’s death.. Frens, v all must appreciate ppl ard us.. If we din, wat if 2mr never comes (mayb for ourself, maybe ppl ard us), regret ll juz b an useless word… Got alot of feeling abt tis funeral~
Special Gambateh to Edna, except prayer, v all can do nth for u.. Put u in my prayer, may God be wif u n gv u d power to move on… Jia you…
人世间有许多苦难是我们难以明白的, 但怜悯世人的阿爸父神应许….
= 他必像牧人牧养自己的羊群, 用膀臂聚集羊羔抱在怀中, 慢慢指引那乳养小羊的… 天家会是我们再次相聚的地方=
期待在天家的相聚.. 想起了外公, 阿姨及大舅… 呵呵 =.=
- 珍惜 -
Ytr i presented a song in Nilai Methodist Church, got one short solo part, mayb u guys may think tat is not a big deal to sing a song in front of ppl…. But for me, it is so meaningful… I treat My voice as a gift from God, although cant b considered as vy nice or special.. but i feel thankful for d chances given for me to sing, for God~
Previously, wat i mean is my secondary school time, in my hometown church… Wat i can say is i din hv such chance to present as there is ’some1′ who is better.. haha.. mayb tat time din fight for d opportunity oso.. juz miss all d chance given ba, felt quite upset for those ppl playing bias at tat time, mayb not bias, juz… dunno la… hahha… depressed then i quited 诗班, some part of d reason is coz of SPM ; some part is due to d reason above… when ppl in hometown church started ask me to sing in recent years, i came to study.. here, i never tot of ppl ll ask me to sing as wat i experienced b4 was tat there is alwiz a more suitable person to sing, i ll never hv d chance, told myself "even though cant sing on d stage to serve d Lord n ppl, i still can sing, it doesnt matter to stand on d stage or other places, God ll know my praises for Him whenever i gv my praises…." haha ^^
I feel happy while singing esp christian songs, it juz makes me feel joyful.. All those praises gv me happiness which cant be expressed by using words.. ^0^ Mayb i cant sing vy well or as pro as singers, but i alwiz hope tat i can touch ppl’s heart by d voices given by d Lord, it is so wonderful tat i got voice to praise my Lord, to serve Lord, make d ppl to experience God’s love.. is juz Awesome~~ thks God for giving me chances now to serve d Lord again by singing,
in my hometown church, in Cf, Cg, and mayb d church in Nilai now… wif
my voice, to sing for God..
求主加添力量, 以歌声事奉他… 能歌颂主是我生命中最快乐的事, 只希望用主所给的服事他, 成为别人的祝福… ^^
最近脾气很不好, 压力来了吧~ 很多事动不动就发脾气, 昨晚有朋友告诉我, 最近的我就像是 ‘ 定时炸弹 ‘ , 让他们感到有些失望, 听了吓到了… 得承认因为身边不顺心的事, 服事, 家里, 朋友, 学业..感到难过, 担忧, 压力.. 跟前几个学期的我差了很多…呵呵.. 不过在康复当中.. 一切都会没事的 ^-^
= 在生命旅程中, 我们常会感到疲倦, 但当我们等待, 全心依赖上帝; 他的力量必定成为我们的奖赏.=
